ever?

Do you ever feel like you just don't exist? There is no real reason that I should think that there should be a connection somewhere, some when or with someone. I wanted one. I wanted a discussion, a jolt to my reality, something to make me feel that I was more than ethereal. But, there was nothing. The kids noticed me, like I was a bump in the middle of the night that woke them enough for them to yawn and turn on their other side. The husband spoke to me, but mostly avoided any real conversation, too painful maybe. More than likely, not ready to face the music. And here I am, alone in a house filled with people who don't really see me. If only I played world of warcraft, maybe then I could connect.