in the end

I keep remembering... years ago. This scene flashes through my mind and it puts things into perspective. I told him while sobbing that he was everything, that he was the witness to my life. He was the main character in all the experiences that were important and soul altering. I told him that no matter what, when I left this world, he had to be there for that too, either to welcome me or send me off from this world. I remember the wrenching thought that he wouldn't be there for everything else that came into my life and the pain that it brought. That was years ago. Now, I don't feel the same, I don't have the same belief or faith. That is truly sad. I'm moving out in two weeks.