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I am usually a very confident person. I know I am smart and pretty and magnetic and capable of everything, but every once in a while, well every three weeks or so to be exact, I go through this phase of complete and utter insecurity and second guessing and downright fear based behavior. I recognize it and try to push it away and know that I am the brave, strong woman I am, but it sneaks in mostly when things around are quiet and maybe dark and I am alone with my thoughts. It is interesting how differently things look when it is dark and quiet and you are alone. These days, I am staying busy. I know I am filling the silence, filling the voids left here and there. But, this too shall pass... and I will ride the roller coaster up that steep hill again and feel the wind whipping my hair and my stomach in my throat and the thrills of life will take me on another adventure. I will not hold on!!! With my hands above my head I will scream and laugh and feel the passions of being alive! And I will remember to bask in the greatness of it all!


...and now I am off to hang green board in the bathroom.

and yes, I know.... I am my own greatest cheerleader (and maybe a lot vain, but right now I need to be).